I’m still in shock, how can this be possible??!

He’s not here anymore! He never left the hospital, not even a month! and “he is gone” that was my sister’s text read on the snowy morning of February 2nd, groundhog day will never be the same, the beginning of every blizzard will never be the same, I’ll always remember that sad morning.

He was an old friend of mine, my best friend’s neighbor growing up, we went to the same college and years later he met my sister in a different city.
In that moment the path of my sister’s life changed, he became her angel, her best friend, her love. He was a great person, it saddens me deeply to know that he won’t be in her life and in the life of my nice. They will never forget him, is their angel from up above now.

I’m so sorry their plans of being a family and having kids together will never be. They were happy, he was the best step father my niece could have.

We love you my friend! RIP

2010 hadn’t even come to an end when we had already got a flat tire on our way to New Year Celebration, I had lost 100 bucks that came out of my back pocket, had been to the front of the line for a kids magic show when the door was closed because there were no more seats, and pushed a stroller with 2 hot chocolates spilling out the cup holders five blocks, to get our tiara less four year old to the bathroom on time, not mentioning she was soaked to her ankles by stepping in a huge puddle on a 40 degree night. Also my 10 month old baby had the 1st diaper explosion of his life.

Having said, I was a little iffy about the coming year.

A week later my sister’s three year boyfriend was diagnosed with lymphoma. This is the first time cancer has reached our family, what a bad feeling that is. It becomes a community fight immediately.

A beautiful cool summer night, tonight is the last night many will live, today they saw their last sunrise and the last sunset, hundreds don’t know it, I don’t know it.
I always wish to live to see the sun set another day.

So easy and so abandoned. Life gets in the way of things thank God! That means we have one!
Mom came to visit, for 3 weeks, from Mexico. I cherrish all the moments we spend in that little time we see eachother every year. My daughter could not be happier when Grandma comes to see her. Watching my Mom play with my kids is priceless to me. Makes me feel guilty for ever leaving her. I really, really hope my daughter never goes far.

The emptiness in my heart everytime she leaves, she must feel it even deeper. God and I know how much she loves me, for she is my Mom.

I’m so ocd, every year I start to plan my daughter’s bday party at least 3 months in advance. It has become my summer project. But if I just relaxed a little things would go smoother.
I’m baking a 5 layer test cake right now. If I wasn’t crazy I would just go to the supermarket and order a regular birthday cake.
But one thing I’m doing this year, PIZZA!! Never done it before! Every year I cook food trays.
But this is my 1st year making the cake, instead of taking a break since I’m ordering pizza I have to give myself more work. Sometimes I’m my worst enemy! I finished making the piniata though! And no balloon arch this year, ok… Unless I finish everything else early… :D

Hahaha I just remembered, when I was 20 and I had only been in the States for 6 months. Riding in my friend’s car I saw the best looking young cop I had ever seen, I asked my friend to make an illegal u turn so the cop would stop us. I was willing to pay the ticket if she got one.
Of course as a good friend she is she didn’t let me waste my money.

I’m a sucker for pretty skies! I just feel like I’m inside an amazing 3D piece of art. The lighting, the colors, the texture of the clouds, take my breath away. I’m so fortunate I’ve seen so many beautiful sunsets. Look up!

Husband has been home late a lot this past 2 weeks, I about had enough of being with the kids 24/7 with no help. I feel for the soliders wives.

Fridays I have the extra shot of energy happiness brings into the air. Everyone is just a little happier on Fridays. I really think the world is a better place on Fridays, even more so than Saturdays or Sundays, Fridays everyone has the hope of a beautiful weekend or crazy weekend if that’s what you aim for… Even if Saturday comes and a lot of times we face the reality of mulching or raking, either way is good; something about being boss less for a couple of days. A sense of freedom. The collective happiness spreads even through people working on the weekend.
Everyone is nicer so the work day goes easier.

Happy Friday everyone! We’ll talk about Sunday night anxiety another time ;)